Here's A Question, Here's A Thought

   I am unique. I say that because my strongest thought growing up was that everyone in the world is different, some lead, some follow, and the ones most people point out, or never notice are the outsiders. Being a bit of a black sheep in my family I knew I had to be a survivor and independent. I then created this opinion of myself that was a never ending goal to be unique. I would often tell my friends throughout childhood, I am just me, Ed. I would coach myself through endless days of depression by telling myself I am unique and although my troubles come in multiples of 3 (often quite hard on impact I might add), I am just me, Ed. You see, I have what they might call Asperger’s syndrome.  Having grown up learning about ADHD and Bi-Polar, then having to come to realization it was a bit more than that. Being socially awkward, rather spending time on my own, and having difficulty communicating with others around me including teachers which often led to struggles within the school syste

   We all change in various ways, our mind and our bodies being the primary. Now change in terms of our bodies could be through various ways, cosmetic, age, tragedy or life happenings. The change I am here to talk about is of the mind and it's inner workings as we grow, age and develop.    When we are born we first become of aware of our surroundings, we are new and fresh to the elements, the senses awakened and our eyes barely able to input the information, we hear for the first time and it's a sensory overload sending us through panic from our comfort zone, crying until in the hands of our soothing parent or nurturing handler. The first stage of many changes, endless amount of changes on the horizon, what challenges we face next.    We as infants know very little and understand just as much. We are all in fact smart but as our bodies develop we take on new information, grasp our capabilities and learn how to do the very things that make us human. Ongoing changes. We

   With all the different ways to communicate to others or simply aloud why non-physical barriers are still the one wall many cannot overcome. We are all able to communicate one way or another thanks to technology but what is really lacking is the understanding on the other side. It can be in many different forms, as simple as how youth see the elderly, majority tend to see them as an obstacle to push aside as it serves them little purpose to communicate with. It used to be as each generation grew, dependence on anyone older become less, now dependence has become renewed in other forms but instead of being dependent on someone for lack of knowledge or ability, it’s become a crutch to remove any ability to stand on your own.    There are rare occasions through upbringing or even situations that lead to a young person becoming connected to an elder, being respectful from an early age, or simply having a desire to learn from those best knowing of information not always widely put on

   Why do we follow, instead of lead? What makes a good leader? Why is it that being a follower doesn’t mean you need to be any good at it? Like a manager, a foreman or a supervisor, their crew should be many things to be successful, still follows the same logic. They are paid to follow, but follow they do. So why followers in social stance do followers make for good company, reliable or trustworthy? At least when they are being paid you can tell the good from the bad, and those who want to follow and those who want to kiss up. In a social stance you have two ways to go. One being the trend setter, the gossiper, the one who knows everything you’re looking for. The second one being the salesperson, they got to entertain you with whatever they can do to keep your attention and your following, put suggestions in your mind to keep you around and for the most part serve their followers to keep or grow those followers.    What does it take to be a good follower? Why do people believe i

   What underlines it for each individual and what forms are acceptable by today’s standards vs. what they were 20, 40, 60+ years ago. With each generation is it easier or harder to express? Depends which view point you take.    Is there a formula for how a scenario might reflect a certain opinion, feeling or memory triggered at the time of occurrence? Could it be manipulated to remove a certain feeling or need in a given moment to change how you would react to that scenario? Depends on which view point you take.    What if you could not express physically, would others know how you felt? Words could justify, but what if you couldn’t speak? Could you feel their presence and justify their expression? I believe with any sense known or unknown our invaluable skill to communicate through endless means is nothing short of extraordinary!    Whether your reason of exclusion of ability to express, communicate or emote, the world and its occupants have many ways to connect you to

   Life is complicated one way or another for every living being in this world, a person such as I can say that a lot goes on that goes unnoticed while sometimes things that do get noticed aren’t recognized by that person. I can say that over periods of time you can adapt and change your world to work in ways you need it to, feeling as though you have grown, accomplished and achieved things only your age would allow. That moment when you feel older yet like your still the person you were years ago. Truth is your experience over time is what brings maturity but your views as you grow from a baby beyond is just the endless wave of learning, at first it seems new and exciting, and then it becomes trivial. So much is taken for granted, and though people are smart enough to know that, they look the other way. You encounter different types of people and though they say its genetics and not upbringing I believe it’s both.     Spending time with my family, watching my child grow and exper