Life in the shade of today's society and what we've missed

   Life is complicated one way or another for every living being in this world, a person such as I can say that a lot goes on that goes unnoticed while sometimes things that do get noticed aren’t recognized by that person. I can say that over periods of time you can adapt and change your world to work in ways you need it to, feeling as though you have grown, accomplished and achieved things only your age would allow. That moment when you feel older yet like your still the person you were years ago. Truth is your experience over time is what brings maturity but your views as you grow from a baby beyond is just the endless wave of learning, at first it seems new and exciting, and then it becomes trivial. So much is taken for granted, and though people are smart enough to know that, they look the other way. You encounter different types of people and though they say its genetics and not upbringing I believe it’s both. 

   Spending time with my family, watching my child grow and experiencing moments that are so familiar and so much like something I would have done as a child without me teaching those habits, those actions, that tells me that we do send more information in our seed than just the basis of DNA of ourselves but also just maybe memories go with it. I say memories because whether your younger or older when you have had your first child, what attributes follow, are they more like you when you’re young or older, what’s to say they aren’t going through moments of a cloudy view of a memory they received through growing in the womb that they learn some habit that they have never learned anywhere else. People are so obsessed with leaving definition of their sexuality till they decided for themselves yet they still sit there giving definitions and pushing it down till the child is confused enough not to be happy with being a boy or a girl. Most led by people who probably have had their own psychological upbringing to create standards they may not even realize are just as implanted as the thoughts they are trying to push onto others. If a child wants to be gay, it’s one thing to push that he’s allowed to, it’s another to make others submit and be thrown in jail for not liking a person, we are humans after all and although you attempt to rewrite the code of what it is to be human, your efforts are not to give us equality instead you look to divide us. 

   In a world where racism and sexism still exist, and wars for profit and power still reign but bring in sexuality and suddenly its criminal even though we haven’t solved the basis of our problems yet. People run people flock to whoever preaches to those strings you grew up being pulled, we become divided and then bring our children into this world no longer focusing on what’s best for them, because since when was every decision we made for our kids based on what we looked up online and what news feed told us was the normal today. If you had one opportunity to look 20 years later and the new normal was to inject every child with a different need till they followed you blindly and marched on down the street like slaves while the machines you first thought were neat became the top of the food chain, your self-worth was nothing, all because you chose to live blind to the world. To be fair someone would bring up politics and say I’m this or that for thinking this or saying that, but seeing as I don’t follow politics and honestly don’t care which side says what to us, I believe in being human, having my own mind my own perceptions and my own drive to do right for myself and by my family, I have literally said since I was a kid by my own accord I want to be a person with old school values and a bit modern. 

   Some things should have changed and they have, some things shouldn’t have been forgotten and they were. Personally I believe if our children could talk for themselves and we were smart enough to understand them rather than dismiss them I think we would all be guilty of our actions, no matter how we defined them. No one is perfect, not even our idols, our heroes or our most trusted confidant. Life will throw you curve balls and we are meant to endure them, fail and learn to win, nothing got accomplished by “participating”. I can say I failed at life for years struggling to make the best of life sorting through depression dealing with my own inner chaos. People think that making changes to our way of life will stop suicide, and yet it’s gone up. We have had more extreme natural disasters ongoing in the last couple years and it has changed how we deal with things, we aren’t improving, we aren’t coming together, we read it on the news and as long as it isn’t affecting us we do not bother. We have known for years resources could run dry, places that never got snow, got snow. Places that flooded with waters suddenly on fire for being bone dry. Places all over the world getting extreme temps in either direction far worse than ever before. Meanwhile our children are getting abducted more and more, hit by cars, killed by friends, locked up by “parents”. You hear about rare cases of kids saving their families lives from certain danger, half the time its due to someone else’s incompetence and the other half due to the lack of knowledge, our parents we dismiss so quickly who only tried to teach us how to keep up after ourselves, learn valuable skills, give us the ability to be quick thinkers and do the right thing. 

   Sure some of us didn’t have parents or maybe they weren’t around, I know from experience if we blamed our parents like we have become accustomed to, blamed our actions on them and repeated their mistakes, whose fault is that, still mine. I however chose to not repeat those mistakes, learn and understand their choices and be my own person. I may confuse people when I communicate it just means I work in a different way, I go above the average dialog to talk with others unfiltered from the binds of society. I may live my life in a different way; commit my time different than other people, but who doesn’t? That’s what makes us different, we are meant to be different, does not have to be labelled and a new name to every corner, but we also shouldn’t lose our integrity and our sense of right and wrong. You can’t always believe every person is speaking true always either, I used to believe we are all good people in the end, just bad choices along the way and not knowing when to stop. Believing this I would give everyone a chance to be real with me and got burned a lot for it. It shouldn’t be criminal to be human, can’t understand why some have the ability to lead, while some are incredible at doing the labour. Why some do “crazy” things as you might refer to it, and why some do great humanitarian things. We are individuals and we will all make mistakes. Some mistakes are accidental and some are purpose built. 

   My methods of life may not be right or wrong, and the next person beside me or beside them or so on might have different methods of right or wrong, but what it is to be one life being in this world among many is one role in a place with many and the basic definition of living from point a to be is to live the life they want, with ups and downs. Whether choices brings you down a path of a long full life, a short ended one by choice or not, whether you choose to live simple whether you’re on the news being the most active member in your area. Your life is a path no matter how long or short. It is only one step in this world among many different others, with other beings no matter how big or small in your world. We should open our eyes, not live blindly or ignorantly but move in ways that can achieve what we want out of life, and not what is dictated and made to look like what life for us is rather than what we as individuals believe life is. We only have one chance, and though they are trying to extend lives in whatever methods they have attempted creation, no matter what religion you follow or if you follow one at all, I do feel that even if your reborn or extended unnaturally thanks to technology, or possibly through a religious means if your belief comes true for you, I say this is still first and foremost your first life, to live from day one learning all new things, experiencing for the first time, growing and adapting to new things. Being reborn or having to live for hundreds of years, your body still deteriorates and unless you start from scratch your mind will still age with time, maybe not in the physical sense but in the way of extending your experience but not learning anything new of significance to enjoy because that will have been long gone. If your trying to extend your life you’re not going to want to start over, its human nature, it’s like earning your first 50k a year and suddenly working at a fast food joint for less than half, you won’t choose that having the choice. Life has a purpose and what purpose you make of it is entirely yours. Just live, be fulfilled by your own design and worry not of how others define themselves or try to define you. 

That’s my take. Thanks for reading!