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Remembering Life

   Remembering life, the way it was, the chances that came and went, mistakes and the smallest insignificant signs you thought you were always aware of until they came and went. A shallow pit in the heart runs deeper once you discover what has been leaking through underneath. Days gone by and they always seem to end the same way. We struggle with our own immortality, some do drastic things to prove they are living, others quite simply embrace the time for what it is.    Life was never short and sweet, I grew with a lot of pain and for years I was depressed, and I am sure everyone knew but like a shattered heart I hit the ground running every day, I lived to make people laugh and smile. I wanted to mend the world, starting with those around me, sacrificing anything I had to do so. Often, I am remembered for a person I long forgot. What memories I must share only paint a picture only too familiar with who I never was. I chalk most up to being a child and typical teenag...
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What's really the issue here?

  What individualizes us that makes us desire such opposites, what balances those things and makes us unique. What of those things can be considered sane, and at other times insane? The definition seems to change based on social status, money, and overall surroundings.  What about era, what was considered one thing is not considered the same. You have large amounts of violence that we see on TV and Video games and that is considered normal because we got used to it, and yet back only years ago there were fights and even riots about freedoms to have these values of expression.    We found ourselves always conflicted because of things like war. It is one thing to play a violent video game but when it comes to war, depending on what view you have and what background you are from it could be the very foundation of what you believe is necessary and vital to life. The same can be said about animals and how much of the world eats meat and dairy products.  Would ou...
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Too Much Focus Can Bring Us Underground

     Whether in a state of sleep or wide awake, in a twist, we blink and we miss  it. We focus so hard on aspects on our lives we miss so many others. What was it like as a child when we thought we knew better, as adults we think the same way, we tend to be more child like even as we grow older. Most aspects of how we respond to changes in our life are similar. Some of us wear our emotions out in front and some of us work them out inward but deep down we are still very much like children. Thin skinned, tough skin, it doesn't matter you know why?      You can take someone who's tough in one scenario and they become thin skinned in another and vise versa. I write a lot, I am passionate and have a lot of opinions. I can be quiet and alternatively I can be quite talkative. I'm emotional and emotionless and I can tell you I Excell under pressure. It's how I was raised, I'll also bow down to those above me because I don't see a reason to push back, it's not ...
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What Has Time and Wealth Got To Do With It?

        Time sure flies doesn't it? Were always so worried about how we're gonna spend it so we tend to pick one thing to focus ourselves on and base our life around. The pursuit of happiness, the pursuit of wealth, the pursuit of living beyond our physical bodies, the pursuit to change the world for better, for worse, or for themselves.      What is time, but of course there's a scientific reason and explanation. There's people who swear they can freeze time in their mind, and at the very least slow it down. They say your life flashes before your eyes right before you die, that instance where your brain can't interpret what is happening so it sends all signals at once trying to solve it's own impending death. Why does some go so quickly and why do so many young die for no reason other than one religions reason or the next.      When violence takes one and misses the other we say it's a miracle and then we focus on the hate. Why do ...
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Perception, Description, Interpretation: What's Love Got To Do With It?

   They say you can fall in love at first sight. Then there are arranged marriage and although controversial depending on who's looking at it, is more than meets the eyes. There are people out there who have real working meaningful long distance relationships. Relationships that stand the test of time. Relationships that last even when one goes off to war for long long periods of time. Life doesn't stop, they still grow, they still have families. People who work away for months, business trips, and so on.     Who says being home 24/7 is the definition of how a real relationship lasts. Communication I've always said was important. Doesn't matter where you are if you can communicate well. Everything else will click into place. You can only feel so connected to someone if your able to be yourself with that person, if you don't make that effort what's love got to do with it? That first reaction when you meet someone is it the only thing that strikes you and gives...
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What Has the World Come To?

   In life we find meaning in different things. I used to believe in the old fashioned values until I realized they were a cover for some bashful mistreated ways to treat a woman. To believe she had to be the home maker while you made the money. Sure biologically it makes more sense as she's more nurturing when it comes to children so she's the softer side and your the harder side that part I get.     The one aspect people don't realize that once you decided you want to be treated exactly the same the less it seemed fair. Once a man hits a woman it's not equal. Once that woman gets drafted into the army just like the men who's home with the kids and who raises them if neither come home? What happens to equal when women are shown as much disgrace as the men for being pig headed, cocky and power hungry? I believe there is a difference between what is perceived is equal then what is the actual problem. Equal pay, damn rights they should get it. Respect damn right...
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One Life One Song

   People pick their poison to get high on life, some are judged and some are found just part of life. When it comes down to whether you choose drugs, religion, or maybe even some type of activity that gives you that rush. The energy delivered by living, that very essence. Whether it be an experience, or an emotional journey.     There's a reason I never fell into major drugs nor stayed addicted to the simple ones everyone consumes like caffeine or tobacco. In every chapter of my life I had music, it was there in the darkness it was there when I was small and fragile. It was there when no one else was. It brought euphoria and it brought great pain. I used to believe I was a good writer because I was socially awkward so I used to make music I just never shared it with anyone. I made music attempting to bridge the gap between my heart and my soul.     I want to help others but for once I fear I've fallen into a world that is darker then even my...
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